I'm So Afraid

I was feeling quite guilty as November drew nearer and nearer, and I was still without a basic plot for NaNoWriMo. Alas, Sunday came and still I had absolutely nothing to write. I wanted to placate my self-loathing somehow, so I thought I would log onto ZU and start a useless little role play just so I could write without concerning myself with structure and plot.

I'm struggling here to say if it's changed a lot, or if it hasn't at all. In my time the OoC was a constant hotbed of activity, as it was now; I'm ashamed to admit that I spent 90% of my time in that thread instead of writing, but then again so did everyone else. This had never seemed a problem to me before (probably because I didn't care at all about writing), but it has become a big one now. I posted my story (which was in my opinion one of the easiest things to reply to in living memory) and was quite taken aback when nobody replied. I do have one comrade now, but I left it open to others and nothing came of it.

This disturbed me. When I joined ZU there was an open RP once in a blue moon, and when there was one people immediately sprang upon it. Now I can see a couple floating about totally unheeded. I don't want to brag, but my opening was well-written and I'm just quite shocked at the dilapidation of the place.

Of course, the OoC Thread is still buzzing on as it was: lightning-quick posts between the oh-so-cool clique of elite members, followed by a torrent of new members 'laughing' along at the various in-jokes; it was a bit disgusting to think that I was once groveling at the feet of Altamira, insanely et al. Once in, I decided to advertise my little RP (because everyone reads the OoC Thread), and nobody even made reference to it.

Distressing.

As I just about had one successful RP going, and craved more to sate my NaNoWriMo withdrawal, I then requested someone to send me a message concerning another prospective role play, which was once again ignored amongst a sea of irrelevant chat.

I also found it very unprofessional how the tournament that I had participated in was simply left half-finished to rot forever. Not pleased.

Overall, the BA (sorry, The Escapists' Haven) needs a serious overhaul. From what I've seen there really is nothing to appeal to anyone who is serious about writing, or indeed role playing of any kind.

What's more, I loathe Power Shot.

On another note, I'm reading Great Expectations. This novel fills me with squee from head to toe. Expect a full review in the near future.